Bright Sides of December 7, 2011

Bright Sides of December 7, 2011

                Alrighty. I am going to try to post something every day, as well as pre-schedule things like poetry and pictures and stuff. The things I am going to try to post every day are some of the every-day happenings. It will be mundane and boring, but I feel as if I need to actively find some focus on the *Bright Side* of things, since I have this lovely habit of getting morbidly dark and depressing.

                Why yes, I am a gigantic ray of motherfucking sunshine. :D Welcome to the party folks.

                Well, I am feeling extra pain-filled today.

                I have been pushing myself the last few days to try to get back to normal, or whatever will pass for normal. I should probably not push myself as hard as I am doing, though it’s much harder than it sounds. I am entirely too stubborn for my own good. It’s a fine line between pushing and hurting myself though, and I am unsure if I crossed it.

                On the bright side: my room is clean.

                On the bright side: I got a bunch of work done.

                On the bright side: I don’t feel like a lump.

                On the bright side: My Mom is coming out to visit for the holidays. I am looking forward to it and have been working on cleaning the house in preparation.  Though, I am not getting much done on that today because I am recovering from the bustle yesterday and running around today.

                On the bright side: My MRI of the Cervical spine is scheduled for Monday. Hooray!

                So, there are many bright sides today, and though I am in pain, I can’t be too curmudgeonly about it.

                However, I seem to be developing what one of the ladies in the infusion center called the MS hug. It hurts to breathe and it’s been squeezing me on and off for the last six hours. It would be kind of groovy if it would go away, but the pain isn’t bad enough to warrant taking anything for it. It’s just annoying as hell.

                Though, I can’t seem to shake this feeling like everyone is mad at me. It’s probably just paranoia, but even if it isn’t, it’s really hard to muster up the energy to give a shit. Hey! Another bright side!!!